April 13th. Been quite long le. Today was busy like hell and damn tired. As the previous day, went out wif kh and ray to la kopi. Its like sooo tired and after 4 plus than went home slp awhile than go work le.

Miss her so much, but i must perservere. Even thou how much happiness i show to other people. I know deep down inside i'm so hurt, even how much i love her. how much i care. I guess thats me andrew ba. I know that lots of time i think about her. But just faking everytime i can to myself. I must not go deeper down to what i am doing. Trying hard to forget her, trying hard not to remember, trying damn damn hard. Haiz. Worst things to do is to be alone. But than its been 2 days and i did not drink anymore.

Wished to go down and buy more beer to drink myself off again. Wondering should i do that anot also. Damn piss off with myself sometimes. Only thing i can do now is blog blog blog i guess. Even i know i do not tell anyone about my true feelings, but than sometimes i just want to let go off everything without holding back. Needed that one listening ear which i do not have.

Going down to buy some beer to drink le. End it here first~