bloIts been maybe a week or wat i do not know. Miss her alot, but then this is so call second post, but fck it, if she scold me again because of blogging again, deleting it off soon. I miss her so much, going crazy also. Since the day she agree to leave me, my life seems to be full of acohol. 1st day when i blog, she called to say that i am telling everyone that she is so stupid, cannot make it.... but actually, i wanted to say sorry i dun mean to break. Funny the world is. Deleted all my 10 blogs from my past when she piss me off. really felt upset when everything happen. Not upset from my blog but from when she calls me. I dun hear any nice tone/words. Today is april fools day le. She came back to take her clothings........etc. Got the urge to go find her. but then another side of me telling me not to. somehow, maybe its been too long or what, everytime i search my heart for an answer, i got 2 answer from my heart and my soul. From my heart is to go find her and patch with her. From my soul is to say that y for you will get scolded for nothing???????? Very confused. Haiz. Just went drink not long ago.. Seriously vodka + Tiger beer does not mix.. dunno how long will i be awake. But while i am awake. Felt like blogging. But then Amen that she does not find out about this blog. If not this blog will not go long again. Its been a long time since i blog, for sometime, i blog just for myself to see. After i told me ex* tat i have 8 blogs, i have suffer since then. About how last time i like this girl or what. Does it really matter really since it is the past? No matter what. She was actually my present and i am with her. Makes no use bothering about the past. Anyways she is sort of my past now too. If anyone who reads this gets bothered by it, Fck off and do not bother telling you are piss off by this. ***Esp ivory my ex.. cause it does not matter...... I'll just click delete off my blog. tats all. If you dun like to see what you dun like, Click the [X] on the top right hand corner. Fck off~!