Today is Good friday.....10 april.. went out with her, i thought things will change, missed her alot also. But than hearing that her new bf is so gooooood, than say that i am so sucks like tat today i think i a bit sot. Tried to chase her back, woo her, take her to the movies, do so many stuff. But then to think of it. what should i do?

Today did the most stupid things... I rather suffer and let her be with her new one now. Maybe to everyone i tink, force and answer out of her will be my lost, i know her answer will be him. But then. maybe i am selffish... say all those things, break contact all that which actually i miss her like hell... but then again. BE THE BAD BAD GUY.... at least maybe what i do is right or wrong,... thats a choice to make, if not everyone will suffer. Is it right or wrong i do not know.

Sort of a crazy decision i make, but really hurts me more is the feeling i get when i know she is with another guy. Can't really help it if he is better than me. Have already no more confident to do anything anymore also. Time will heal anot i do not know. But what i know is i will take a step at a time. So be it... The world is a very sad sad place.. haiz.~