Today is sunday... Went to my friend's chalet there chill and ton for the night, seriously 2009 is a cursed year. Heard alot of breakups this year but never expected that i too will break up. Now even thou missing her and keep thinking of her, i could not do a thing and maybe i'm too scared of the rejection or what. Things been going thru my mind alot but thinking of her everyday was like i know i can do something, but really i do not dare think that much also. Waiting for her to call me, just hearing her voice have already make me go crazy but than.... the words that come out of my mouth, i do not know.

Regretted for quite a number of days now too... yesterday at the chalet talk with some people who break up also, seen alot and talk alot too. But what is missing really is someone to hug, to kiss, to be with when i needed to. Maybe as what she said was thru, but my mind is still confused ! Arghhh.. again i tink i will drink my vodka i guess while typing my blog. Today drank alot till headache but then hopefully it helps me cool down.

now is 9.30am, looking at her pictures, videos and everything we been thru. To let it all be gone in an instants its really like hell alot to me. Hands getting itchier by the min to send her a sms "how are you".. this i almost sent.... but why did i not?? Haiizzzz....