Hmmm.. dunno issit violet dead or alive. Weird.. recieve a sms saying from her mum shes dead.. den i see her frenster like still online.

These few weeks quite busy. Find it weird i got a gf now. Things are not the same i guess.... even thou i am with someone...my heart seems dead. Just living a life with no aim to be, everything i do now is just to keep myself from anyhow thinking. Too sucks to be me. Hate that feeling that is coming from my heart. Well, got to entertain myself and make me dun think so much. I guess making someone fall in love with me is simple. But to love someone is too hard for me i guess. Sometimes after all the things that happen i find it bad to leave so i choose to stay on with her for till i dunno.

Been about almost a month soon that i will be with her. Well i'm not sure whats gonna happen in the future. But i guess taking a step at a time works for me well. A few days ago i just saw her view my frenster again. Started to remind of her everyday again. Sometimes i just do not like the feeling. Hating myself more and more everytime i'll be remind of her. Had to think of other ways to make myself forget about everything that hurts. GOD!!! fck memories. Fck everything! I'll be a Devil again if i have to!