3.40am.. just finish scrolling the park while drinking beer.. Have a few thoughts while sms her.. Dunno what to do now. Very confused. How i wish i can turn back time. Make some adjustments then every thing will be alright. But thats not the truth. Everything i dream of.... everything i thought of~ Now it does not seem to be alright.

Even right now i have no idea what am i doing.. just following my heart, But the more i follow my heart.... the hurt i get is getting more. I gave up. I dunno what am i thinking. I have no idea now whats going thru my mind. Scared that even i will not be able to give her the life she wants... Afraid. Maybe its best i give up? I dunno. WTf am i doing now. Tooo confuse to blog. Felt like its the end of the world. Its really not the same now... everything that i do now doesn't seem right... which should conquer me... my heart or my ego. Dun want to think anymore le ......... I hate reality.. Fck the world~