Today damn piss off... almost throw my resignation letter lo...Heng everyone ask me not to if not i'll be jobless now. Still having a headache, yesterday slp around 2 hours like that den go work. Den at work DUm Painkiller for my headache~ Sianz.... Still got alot of things to do at work den tomolo still need to OT cause of some screw ups and need to clean the shit lo...Zzzz~

Now trying to rush my work den hope everything will be fine. At least i already pour out what i think about her now i feel a bit more fine as i kept it for months le, lying to myself everything will be okie. I can 4get. i can do this and that... blah blah blah~ Now facing the reality in life makes me a bit more carefree le. Find myself a bit more better i guess? I mean after expierencing too much stuff going on with my life, lots of things i may not get angry about (except for today).But i guess this is work. So in order to earn more, i guess i got to dong till things get better ba. For love life, i guess i'm still waiting.... Really i dunno about myself sometimes. Had a dream while i sleep for 2 hours, can call it nightmare or what, i dreamt that we patch but in my heart, i'm too scared to face her family again as for the past i guess i never make a good impression and making them hate me so much.

Even thou i love her so badly, want her so badly, the heart inside me is terrified of whats gonna happen from now on. The time now is 7pm. Still looking at her sms. Dunno how to reply her le. As shes wif him now i guess i got to still give some space if not i'll really be a 3rd party liao le. But maybe for now it is good as the work load for me now so siong, maybe the decision was right to give up~ if not if i OT, i guess she will be angry with me again de.So i can say maybe thats for the better now. Write till here now le. Maybe later on i'll kio mi room first ba.~