ZZZZzz now 3.15am, cannot sleep just now all the way, was trying to sleep then suddenly thought about her again. Sort of miss everything in the past and then thought of now, about the present and the future. Damn sucky feeling again. Jialuck, tomorrow dunno how to work le. maybe should take MC or what, having a bit of headache now also. Haiz.

Maybe life ain't that simple sometimes, even thou i seem okay, every now and den, The feeling will come eventually and i started to feel that my heart is crying again. But for now, toughen out a little and does not cry now. Even thoug how much my heart weep, i keep telling myself not to and keep making myself think of stupid games, try to keep myself busy with them. But really glad i make alot of new friends thou. At least on saturday, i enjoy myself and also never think too much. Guess this is life ba.... dunno when will i get someone which i could pour my heart to and have someone that can chill away the firewall i build in my heart. For now, its only me and me alone.