Today a bit suay... i dunno what really when thru me, terrible day.... whats suppose to be mine is not mine. quite a bit regret going out today cause see alot of things i dun wan to see. Haiz. Just came back home. now 11.35pm forget that i put hp on silent mode also. Never call back cause i really in a terrible mood now.

Really hate things as it is now. reality is so fck up and i hate it. FCK UP!!! haiz... what to do.. today i almost did a rash thinking... heng my brain take over my heart.... if not i think i wun be here liao. Really what should i do now. Only can say.. those who chat with me really cheer me up, but once they are gone, i will be back soon to the part which i dun like. remembering the past. Fk man. Also dunno what to keep myself busy. drink beer makes it worst i think. Till now theres no girl that can really make me feel everythings gonna be alright. Till then, beer, cigs, music is the only thing that can really make me slp in peace.

Tomorrow still got work somemore. Haiz... feel like going back to PW to work.. dunno also. cause if like the past, everyday can busy den end of work drink like a slug dog... i maybe wun mind cause i'll still be wasting my time, but not thinking of anything else. Haiz.... maybe i go slp and 4get everything now. FCK UP WORLD>